Many people see the in front of the camera presence of Lindsey Brown at WTOK-TV, however the side very few privileged individuals get to see is the behind the scenes thrills and moments!

Lindsey has become a close friend, and one of the things I love about her, is her passion.  She gets passionate over the smallest things and details, from the lion cubs running in the wild, to homeless animals, to one of her two  favorites in my opinoin . . . . taking photos and food!

Here are some of my favorite "candid" shots!

Every night after we get back from dinner, producing the 10 is on the top of our list . . . . after a snack that is!

One of her passions is food, good food, food you can enjoy and savor EVERY piece!

 Sometimes a girls just gotta have a sundae!

Her future is so bright she's gotta wear shades!

 

 One of the things most people don't see is the fun we have when the cameras are off, or during commercial breaks!

When all is said and done, you cannot ask for a better co-worker that you can call friend!

I finally did it, I have had a few people ask for pictures, and while they have been on face book for a week, not all of my friends and contacts have Face Book - so here it is!

My Best Friend / Roommate Jennifer and I went to a Crawfish Boil at Art Attack Tattoo & Piercing here in Meridian.  The couple that owns the shop are Wendy and Danna.

Jennifer and I decided to get matching tattoo's - however after picking it out, we decided it was to detailed and too painful for my first one!

This is a sample picture of the one we both want:

However it would be in Rainbow colors.


I decided instead to get Chinese Symbols on the back of my neck.  This is something I have been wanting to get for a long time - so I am now branded!

The meaning is very special to me!  Those that are extremely close friends know the true meaning.  However a majority of you think it means Infinity.  Which technically in a way, it does.  So if you are reading this, and I told you Infinity, pull me aside and ask the true meaning if you really care enough to ask!

The other accessory I got was a nose piercing.  This was extremely a spur of the moment decision, and one that still to this moment shocks the ever loving hell out of me.  I am deathly afraid of needles.  TERRIFIED.  Jennifer got her nose pierced, and I guess I decided I would do it to, because we really wanted to do something together.

For those of you thinking how the hell did I get a tattoo if I am scared of needles?  I got the piercing first.  If ANY of you are scared like I am, especially about getting a good piercing or tattoo, infection, sterilization, cleanliness, etc.  I HIGHLY suggest Art Attack in Meridian.

I have been around many tattoo & piercing parlors and would NEVER allow anyone to touch me.  Wendy on the other hand is AMAZING.

Picture of Jennifer and myself immediately after getting our noses pierced.

I do have to say for anyone interested.  If you have ever gotten your ears pierced, your ears hurt 10 times worse than this.  I am a big wuss when it comes to pain, and it pinched and that was it.  Your eyes do tear up for a quick second, then it is gone.

My nose was sore for about 2 days, but not painful sore, just the sore feeling you get when you had a pimple or zit on your nose that you popped and it hurt for a few hours.  Imagine that for a day or two.

The ONLY issue I had with my nose piercing is that I had a ?barbell? and not a corkscrew piercing for my first 2 weeks, then I was to come in and get it changed out with the corkscrew ring.

Well, a WEEK from the day I got the sucker, it fell out in my sleep.  I had to go and get my freaking nose RE PIERCED and that pissed me off!

However that goes to show how much I trust Art Attack and how little it hurt because I allowed her to do it a second time in a week.

I went back tonight and attempted to get a corkscrew in, but it isn't fully healed yet, so she put a different type in, I call it a fish hook, because it looks similar to one! 

Over the past few years I have come to realize that my life doesn't suck as badly as I once thought it did!  I used to be of the opinion that life wasn't fair, that the world was against me, and that I would go nowhere with me life.

Now, I am of the opinion life is what you make of it, and I am proud to say that I am making a pretty damn good one.  However most people measure success and happiness with work, friendships, and relationships.

I have a fabulous job that I love.  I have never enjoyed going to work before, but now that is different.  I have co-workers that for the most part I enjoy working with,  A boss who is down to earth and encouraging, and nowhere but upwards to go.  Lyndsey B has been an outstanding friend/coworker - which is hard to get in the workplace, she actually makes work fun, we are a great team, and she is a great teacher.

I also love my volunteer work, PTO, CURE, All-Star, etc.

I have wonderful friends.  Amy who has kept me sane and level headed for many years and Jennifer who constantly makes me laugh and appreciate life more everyday.  I have many other friends, but these are the main two.

However I seem to be missing the next key "ingredient" that success is often measured.  The Relationship.

The dreaded "R" word.  The giving up your independence, individuality, space, time . . . . the more I type it the more I realize why I am single . . . . it is all about me!

However the older I get the more I crave that relationship with the person I will be with forever.  What is forever though?  I have had the quick flings, and the relationships with "the one", that turned out to be "the frog" - but I don't want to put myself out there and get hurt again, I don't want to invest time and pieces of myself for something that may not work.

There lies another problem, how do you know that it is going to work unless you put the time, energy, and pieces of yourself into it?

My other problem is that I have "relationships" at this time, that I would love for them to go elsewhere.  However I am too scared to be the one to make the first move.  What if I misinterpret the signs?  What if by saying something, I ruin what we have NOW.

Is it better to possibly ruin something good and know now, or better to wait, enjoy what you have, and find out at a later time?

Is it better to know the truth now, and spend the time alone, or spend the time with someone you enjoy spending your time with, and find out later?

I find it funny recently that there have been several prospects, and I have always found myself saying, "Why can't I find someone to accept me just as I am?"  However I am not willing to accept that person just as they are, I always find fault with them.  What type of person does that?  I want to have standards, I want to have qualities, but at what point do you start lowering standards?

Will I be old and crippled sitting in the nursing home in 40 years still single?  Will I be completely alone?

I think I am so terrified of living life and having regrets and at the same time regretting doing the things that are living life.

Example - after finally getting my relationship on a better track with my parents, they find out I recently got a nose piercing.  They freak out.  I am told if I ever want help from them, not to ask for anything from them unless I have gotten rid of the nose ring.  Thank God they don't know about the tattoo I also got!  I don't regret getting the tattoo or piercing, but I will regret having a strained relationship with my parents years down the road.  Especially my Mom.  It doesn't bother her as much as it does my Dad.  However they come in a 2 part package.  You cannot have one without the other.

My point is I wanted to do this for 10+ years.  I did it, but now in a way regret it.

I know I cannot live my life according to someone else's standards, however I have always be co-dependent when it comes to my parents, and they know this, and use it to their advantage.  I am finally at the point of saying, "If you cannot accept me for me, then you cannot accept me at all"

I have my birth family who loves and cares for me.  I have great friends.  I have a great job, and I can only hope that the one for me is out there, somewhere, wondering, hoping, and waiting just as long and hard as I am.

No I am not the newest Nazi recruit, nor am I smoking the herbs!

I auditioned back in March for a role in "The Producers" at Meridian Little Theatre

After a really good audition, that I felt really good about, I find out 4 days later that I was being offered a chorus roll.  After thinking about it I decided there is no small rolls just small actors (or some crap like that) and decided to accept the challenge.

After nearly 2 months of practice 4-5 days per week we started dress rehearsals last week, and have had some really good audiences.

I have several rolls I am an accountant, and we get to sing a fun song about how Unhappy we are!

This is a picture of me in my Accountant costume with one of the leads "Ulla", a new friend of mine, Kristen Stevens.

One of the other rolls I have is Donald Dismore.  I am auditioning to be in the play Springtime for Hitler, my character is a huge nerd

During my audition I start to sing the song "The Little Wooden Boy" hence the pulling on my crotch!

Here is one of my new friends I made

 

His name is Adolf!

I am also a Nazi Storm Trooper - which a lot of friends have made lots of comments about!  Adolf Hitler is rolling in his grave!

So that is the latest with me!  So if you have time come out to see us at Meridian Little Theatre in "The Producers"